Christian Benedict

One year ago today our little son Christian went ahead of us into glory. The day I held him here on earth was also the day he was welcomed into heaven with shouts of joy, into the arms of immeasurable love.

Sometimes I wonder what one year in heaven has been like for my son? And when I think about that, it is hard to be sad, just as it's hard to be sad imagining your child off on a holiday having a wonderful time, and knowing that you get to join them there soon.

I have a new love for Psalm 116:15:  "Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints." Spurgeon gave an excellent sermon on this verse. He said:

"We love the people of God, they are exceedingly precious to us, and, therefore, we are too apt to look upon their deaths as a very grievous loss. We would never let them die at all if we could help it... We count that we are the poorer because of the eternal enriching of those beloved ones who have gone over to the majority, and entered into their rest...We hang up the mournful escutcheon, and sit us down to mourn our full, and yet, meanwhile, the bells of heaven are ringing for "the bridal feast above," the streamers are floating joyously in every heavenly street, and the celestial world keeps holiday because another heir of heaven has entered upon his heritage. May this correct our grief. Tears are permitted to us, but they must glisten in the light of faith and hope. Jesus wept, but Jesus never repined. We, too, may weep, but not as those who are without hope, nor yet as though forgetful that there is greater cause for joy than for sorrow in the departure of our brethren."

But I think it's important to remember that it's not just Christian who gained something that day. Joel and I, and all of those who suffered with us, were privileged to bear a heavier portion of the cross of Christ. And when Christ's cross is laid on you, He is right there with you bearing you up. Those who suffer draw nearer to God, and the comfort He gives is far more wonderful than the pain we might feel. Rutherford said: "If your Lord calls you to suffering, do not be dismayed, for he will provide a deeper portion of Christ in your suffering...You can't sneak quietly into heaven without a cross. Crosses form us into his image. They cut away the pieces of our corruption...Lay all your loads by faith on Christ, ease yourself, and let him bear all. He can, he does, and he will bear you."

We are missing our son today. But we are also rejoicing that he is already further up and further in.

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.